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    2012 ~ My Review

    I love New Years Eve. It’s a day to really reflect on the good, bad and the ugly of the past year and dream about the year to come. No matter the trials, I always come to this day knowing I’ve learned something new and grown closer to being the person I’d like to become. I may need to live to 100 before I get there, but progress is progress!


    I leave 2012 with a mixture of emotions. This is the year I’d most like to put behind me, but it’s also the year I never want to forget. In 2012 relationships with friends and family were strengthened. I saw people who I love take great steps of faith and bravery. I watched in awe as God’s love shone from people who love Him. And I was changed by experiences, humbled and broken and blessed.


    There were also places in 2012 were we had to dust off our sandals and move on, leaving behind relationships that were only harmful. People are not disposable, but there are circumstances when the best move is to move on. This is done with forgiveness in process and only good wishes for everyone’s future.







    So, beyond the big lessons of 2012 we have the moments. All those segments in time that give us memories and stories we will share for the rest of our lives.  Here’s a few:

    Aleasha had her twelfth birthday.

    Joshua stepped out and tried two new sports during his freshman year of high school. He wrestled in the winter and threw javelin in the spring. Each week he threw that javelin farther, impressing his coach and his parents.

    Ryan stepped out and tried tennis.  He and his doubles partner, Trevor, had a lot of fun regardless of the rain. And there was much rain!

    Emma turned eleven.

    We welcomed a new nephew to the family!

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    Jason got a year older and I stayed the same age.

    Joshua discovered that he loves welding and wants to do something with this in his future.

    The kids showed sheep, pigs and steers in the county fair.



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    Ryan started his senior year, turned eighteen and voted in his first election.

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    Aleasha and Emma started taking a few classes at the middle school. They’ve made new friends and excelled academically.

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    Aleasha played a LOT of volleyball!

    Bella didn’t have any major accidents.

    I signed with Karen Ball of the Steve Laube Agency. What an honor!

    Ryan put many hours into a barn he was building for his senior project. We had a major wind storm and down came the barn!


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    Jason was Ryan’s helper on the barn project. He earned the title of “Chuck Monkey” for his mad bit changing skills.

    Joshua decided to give football another try, and he did great! He played hard for the JV team and was able to play enough varsity to earn his first letter.

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    Ryan’s soccer team, short on players but long on dedication, took their season all the way to the state championship. And they WON! An awesome punctuation for his senior year.

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    Kit Kat passed away with the honor of being the oldest cat ever. We’re not sure how old she was, but seriously, that was an OLD cat.

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    Joshua turned sixteen!

    Ryan and Jason took off the night of Christmas and traveled with the basketball team to Alaska for a tournament. They are on the way home as I type this.

    I know I’m forgetting so many things! As usual, our year was full. Thank you to each of you who were a part of our lives this last year. May 2013 be a year of blessings, friendship and love!



  • ramble


    My word for 2012 has arrived.




    “Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.”

    ~Harriet Tubman


    I wasn’t initially impressed by this word. It’s not as flowery off the tongue as other words. When you repeat it over and over, it begins to sound like my geriatric cat when she’s about to give me a mess to clean up.


    But as I thought through the meanings of the word, I began to understand.


    I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

    Philippians 3:14 (NLT)


    A person can reach, as in reach for a dream. I’ve been stangent in this area for a couple months. Reach for me can mean to relight the fire that fuels my passions.


    To reach a port, we must sail – sail, not tie at anchor – sail, not drift.

    ~Franklin D. Roosevelt


    We also reach out for help. I’m so bad at this. Being a bit independent (okay, maybe more than a bit), I tend to try and fix situations on my own. This year I’ll focus on reaching toward God and accepting His hand rather than my usual, “I can do it myself!” plan.


    Reach can refer to our own choices to reach out to those around us. In this way, reach is similar to compassion. I can offer mercy, grace and help to the people in my life.


    Reaching out with forgiveness is a blessing for both participants.
    Only a man who knows what it is like to be defeated can reach down to the bottom of his soul and come up with the extra ounce of power it takes to win when the match is even.

    ~Muhammed Ali


    This post wouldn’t be complete without one more quote.
    “Reach for the sky!”
    ~Woody (Toy Story)




  • ramble

    Searching for my word

    Searching for my word…


    It’s a tradition I’ve never participated in. With the year coming to an end, many of my friends and acquaintances will be choosing a word to focus on during the 365 days of 2012. Granted, many of my friends are writers, so this may not be as common a tradition as it appears to me to be.


    This year, I’ve decided to find my word. Some change in my life seems like a solid idea. Things haven’t exactly been going in the direction I’d like them to. This year has been filled with loss. Some loss of relationships, some realization of the fact that there never was a relationship to salvage, and much loss of security. I’ve struggled with fears and anxiety, disappointment and sorrow.


    I’d like my word to be something like…HOPE. But I’m not convinced yet that this is the one.


    2011 wasn’t all bad, and in the end, I still have an amazing husband and my children are healthy.  So maybe GRATITUDE should be my word.  I’m sitting here in my darkened living room, still able to write this post with the electricity out. There are so many things that I’m grateful for, and shouldn’t that be our focus every year?


    I’ve watched helplessly as circumstances around me have taken seriously wrong turns with no way to stop the runaway train. Maybe SURRENDER should be my word…but maybe FIGHT would be better.


    What about COMPASSION. There’s something this world is greatly lacking. I do hope I can be a person of compassion, FORGIVENESS, STRENGTH and MERCY. All wonderful words.


    There are so many words to choose from. Each seems right in its own way. So I’ll wait a while and hope the right word makes itself known.


    What’s your word for 2012?